Sunday, March 27, 2011

Maxis payment. tsk.

Yea man~

Marcia 1 - Maxis Broadband 0.

My mom called me a few days back, saying my old maxis broadband's bill was sent to the house. It seems that my mom have been paying for a few months, even after I terminate it and started a new plan. So, I called the service center.

Apparently, I've been over paying. About RM78 over paid. And as for my new broadband plan, I haven't paid for 2 month. Lol. I was overdue about RM92. So I said, can I transfer my overpaid bill to my overdue bill? She replied with annoyance in her voice, "so you want to transfer.... *something something*?" and I said "yes". So, I think she has already arrange it and next month I only need to pay RM 14. xD

So, I will go now. I am still sleepy. xD

Later.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Things that I hate.


There are some things that I hate and annoy me to bits. I shall list them in non alphabetical order.

1- I hate people who sings on the top of their lungs, especially when it is 11 am in the morning and half the apartment is still sleeping. NO, I don't mind them singing. I HATE THE PART WHERE THEY SCREAM, in loud frikkin voice. If it's the angelic voice that made even the wild beasts smiling and purring like a kitten, then I won't mind. Then again, if her frikkin' voice sounds like a thunderstorm during a hot summer day, then, I'm sure even the beasts won't mind eating her. I swear, if I didn't know any better, I'd say she's trying to summon the devil while being possessed by a man. Yes, I believe she is possessed by a ghost of a man that died thirty five years ago. Someone please exorcise her.

Yea.. I was trying to find a possessed pic but found this instead. This will do. :D

2- Stupid classmate that didn't tell me the class was cancelled. I waited about thirty minutes waiting alone in front of the locked class. Waiting. Just waiting. I gave up, thinking the class starts late, so I just left. I thought no one would miss me if I miss one class. Then, at 6.30 pm I went to buy some lunch, and I saw one of my classmate. I asked, "did we have class earlier? I went but there was no one there." She looked at me. "Didn't you know class was cancelled?" .... My mind went blank. STFU.

3- Hypocrite. Ah, don't get me started on this topic.



4- A person I waited after I messaged, "tell me if you're already in front of my block." and waited for 10 minutes before she replied, "ah, I'm already in class." Oooo... Oh no you don't sister. I arrived late for class because I thought we would walk together to class. Never again, I tell you. Never. Again.

5- People who criticize other people without realizing their own flaws. You say I am unfair. You say people who laugh out loud while watching a comedy and cried watching a Korean drama from their laptop are crazy. I shall quote you. "Crazy what? Laughing like a madman in front of laptop." ... *sigh* Do you want me to record you laughing like crazy while watching a comedy? Well do you? I think I saw you laugh and cry 'lagi over' compared to the person you are referring to.

6- Still. I hate people who scream (as she calls it singing) on the top of their lung when someone else is sleeping. Yes.

Aaa... it's 7.30 pm. I rant more than enough. :D

Monday, March 21, 2011

My day today

Updates on Me: (Wow.. I sound so narcissist. haha..)



This morning:
I wore nice, clean clothes. Well.. there's always something wrong if I wear good, clean clothes. I was too lazy to iron my shirt. Though I was wearing my cardigan on top on my shirt, some of the wrinkle close to my neck was still visible. Damn.

After the end of the presentation, which I already presented last week, the lecturer said. "Well ok, out of 9 groups, no group put references in their slides. Only 1 group put a reference in their slide. Fatira's group." I was like 'EHHHHHHHHHHHH?!!!!!!!!' Fatira and I was shaking our head, and making hand gestures, implying we didn't put reference. But he ignores it and continues his talk. I feel like doing facepalm at that moment. haha..

So, to Fatira. -Apologize to the people. Apologize to the one group who did made reference but didn't get credit for it. And apologize to me because sir remembered your name, not mine.- Haha... Joking la.

Went to lunch with Fatt and I suddenly uttered, "FLIP It!" (which is an Information Literacy model, and was presented by at least 3 groups during my class earlier). Fatt looked at me and shriek.

"Like OMG. Why did you have to say something that was on my mind?!"

so I said. "OMG. You were thinking about it too?! OMG. Is it like.. we're destined to be together because out of millions of things, why did we have to think about FLIP It! model?!"

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

feeling depressed due to assignments

Being up at 3.30 am and doing my assignments while feeling guilty... this is the time when I wish I was at home, snuggling comfortably under my blanket or hugging my youngest brother while he tries to push my face away from him.

:(. I want to cry. I feel very guilty. It's my mistake, I know.

Forgive me? I made it harder for you. I guess, my guilt has been eating me from the inside, that's why I feel really bad right now. :(

I can feel these are the days when tears will freely flow down from my cheek. I am weak and I cry a lot. Most of the time, I managed to held it in, but sometime the tears just drop down, even when I forced it not to pool in my eyes.

Ah, I want my family at this moment. Or a friend to listen to me, as I cry my heart out.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Japanese artist confirmed safe.

Artist Confirmed To Be Safe (Ctrl+F to find the name you want to search)

9nine

AAA
Abe Natsumi
Abiru Yuu
Abe Mao
Ai
Ai Cherie
Ai Otsuka
Aiba Hiroki
Aiko
AILI
Aira Mitsuki
Akinishi Jin
Akane
AKB48
alan
Ai Kawashima
Ami Suzuki
Anna Tsuchiya
Aoyama Thelma
Arashi
Asakura Daisuke
Asari Yosuke
Aya Hirano
Ayaka
Ayumi Hamasaki
Ayuse Kozue
Aqua Timez
AZU
Becky
Berryz Koubou

B.I.Shadow:
Kento Nakajima

BENI
BoA
Boom Boom Satellites' Michi
BREAKERZ
BRIGHT
bump.y
C-ute
capsule
Chemistry
Cocoa Otoko
COMA-CHI
Crystal Kay
D-BOYS
Da Pump member Tomo
Dachou Club
Daichi Miura
DE DE MOUSE
Endo Shouzou
Emi Maria
Eri Kamei ( ex. Morning Musume )
Fukui Hiroaki
FictionJunction
Five member Ryota Kamisato
flumpool
Fujimori Shingo
Fujimoto Miki
Fujioka Hiroshi
Fujiwara Tatsuya
Fukuyama Masaharu
FUNKY MONKEY BABYS
GIRL NEXT DOOR
Goto Yukari
GReeeeN
Gyaruson
HALCALI
Hamada Britney
Harisenbon
Hello! Project
Hey! Say! JUMP
Higashiyama Noriyuki
Hiromi
Hitomi
Hige Danshaku
Hirahara Ayaka
Hiraoka Yuta
Hirose Komi
HOME MADE KAZOKU
Horikita Maki
Hoshimura Mai
Hoshino Aki
Hoshino Gen
Hosoda Yoshihiko
Ichihara Hayato
Ichii Sayaka
Ichikawa Tomohiro
Ichikawa Yui
ICONIQ
Idoling!!!
Ikimono Gakari
Ikuta Toma
immi
Inoue Joe
Inoue Mao
Inoue Masahiro
Inoue Takehiko
Inoue Waka
Ishiguro Aya
Ishihara Kaori
Ito Hideaki
Ito Yousuke
Ito Yuna
Iwanaga Hiroaki
Izumiya Shigeru
Jasmine
JUJU
Juliet
Jero
JYJ
Kanjani8
Kago Ai
Kalafina
Kamakari Kenta
Kamiji Yusuke
Kamiki Aya
Kamiki Ryunosuke
Kana Nishino
Kaname Jun
Kanata Hongo
Kaneda Aiko
Kanon Wakeshima
Kaori Iida ( Dream morning musume )
Kara
Kato Emiri
Kato Kazuki
Kato Natsuki
KAT-TUN
Kawada Mami
Kawakami Maiko
Kawaoka Daijiro
Kawase Tomoko
Kinoshita Yukina
Kinki Kids: Koichi Domoto & Tsuyoshi Domoto
Kis-My-Ft1, 2
Kishitani Kaori
Koide Keisuke
Kimura Ryo
Kinomoto Minehiro
Kitano Kie
Kitayama Hiromitsu
Kohhei Takeda
KOKIA
Kokusho Sayuri
Komatsu Ayaka
Komuro Tetsuya
Kumi Koda
Kuraki Mai
Kurokawa Mei
Kusumi Koharu
Kuwano Nobuyoshi
Kyan Chiaki
Lily.
m-flo
MAA
Maaya Sakamoto
Maeda Atsuko
Maeda Yuki
Maki Goto
Maon Kurosaki
Masuwaka Tsubasa
Mano Erina
Matsushima Shota
Matsushige Yutaka
Matsuyama Kenichi
Matsuyama Yuya
Matsuzaki Shigeru
MAX’s Reina, Nana, Lina, and Mina
MAY’S
May J.
MEG
MEGUMI
Meisa Kuroki
Melody
MiChi
mihimaru GT
Mika Nakashima
Miliyah Kato
mini
MINMI
MISIA
Miura Haruma
Miura Ryosuke
Miura Shohei
miwa
Miyagawa Daisuke
Mizca
Miyazawa Rie
Miyu Nagase(ex-Zone)
Mizobata Junpei
Mizushima Hiro
Mukai Osamu
Monkey Majik
Morikubo Shotaro
Morning Musume
Moumoon's Yuka
Mr. Children
Ms. OOJA
MUCC
Nagashima Shugo
Nagata Anna
Nakagawa Shoko
Nakamura Yuichi
Nakao Akiyoshi
Nakazawa Yuko
Namioka Kazuki
Nami Tamaki
Namie Amuro
Nana Kitade
Nana Mizuki
Nanase Aikawa
Narimiya Hiroki
NEWS
Ninomiya Tomoko
NICO Touches The Wall
NIKIIE
NMB48
Nobuo Uematsu
Nojima Kenji
Noriyama Nobuyuki
Nozomi Tsuji
NYC
Oguri Shun
Okada Yoshinori
Okamoto Rei
Oku Hanako
OLIVIA
ON/OFF
Ono Takurou
Onosaka Masaya
Orange Range
ORESKABAND
Otsuru Gitan
Perfume
Pour Lui
PUFFY
RAM RIDER
Rie Fu
RIZE
RSP
RUN&GUN
S/mileage
Sakurada Dori
Sakurai Rina
Saori@destiny
Sasaki Kensuke
Sasano Takashi
Sato Megumi
Sato Takeru
Satoda Mai
Satoshi Fumi
Sayuri Sugawara
SAWA
Scandal
SDN48
SHEILA
SEAMO
Seto Kouji
Shaku Yumiko
Shida Mirai
Shikao Suga
Shimizu Shota
Shinichi Osawa
Shinohara Tomoe
Shioya Shun
Shohei Miura
SHU-I
Shugo Tokumaru
SKE48
SMAP
Sonar Pocket
Sonim
Sowelu
Stereopony
Sugimoto Aya
Sugiura Taiyo
Sugizo
Superfly
Supercell
SUPER☆GIRLS
Suzuki Ami
Suzuki Anne
Suzuki Kyoka
Suzuki Ryohei
T.M.Revolution
Tackey & Tsubasa
Taisuke Fujigaya
Takada Riho
Takahata Mitsuki
Takano Hiroshi
Tamaki Hiroshi
Tamura Atsushi
Tanaka Kei
Tanimura Mitsuki
Tanimura Nana
Taniyama Kisho
Teppei Koike
Terry Ito
The Brilliant Green
The Boss
The Takagi twins
The Touch
Toda Keiko
Toki Asako
TOKIO
Tokito Saburo
Tokuyama Hidenori
Tomoko Kawase (Tommy february/heavenly6)
TOTALFAT
Tsuchiya Yuuichi
Tsuji Nozomi
Tsuji Shion
Tsukamoto Takashi
Ueno Juri
Usuda Asami
Utada Hikaru
V6
w-inds.
Wentz Eiji
WEAVER
WISE
X Japan’s Yoshiki
YA-KYIM
Yagami Ren
Yaguchi Mari
Yamamoto Tarou
Yamamoto Yusuke
Yamasato Ryouta
Yanagiba Toshiro
Yasuda Kei
Yasuda Misako
Yasumoto Hiroki
Yorico
Yu Darvish
Yu Shirota
Jun Shirota
YUI
Yui Aragaki
Yui Horie
Yukari Tamura
YUYA Matsushita
Zeebra
2NE1
→Pia-no-jaC←

Confirmed Injuries
Yuto and Daiki from Hey! Say! JUMP are currently in the hospital with minor injuries.
Yuriko Kaida of FictionJunction has a broken finger
Masahiro Matsuoka of TOKIO - sustained minor injuries

Source: Jpop Asia

JROCK artist that are confirmed safe.

IF ONLY THE BAND IS LISTED - ALL MEMBERS ARE CONFIRMED SAFE.

12012
2side1BRAIN
9GOATS BLACK OUT
9mm Parabellum Bullet

Acid Black Cherry
Administrator
ALiBi
AliceNine
An cafe – Kanon, teruki, miku, Takuya
aicle
Aigis - Tenka
ALSDEAD
amber gris
AND
Angelo - Kirito
Aoi from Ayabie
Arc
Art Cube - Z
AUBE
AYABIE

Base ball bear
Black cat - Makoto
(ex) Black:List - Kyotaro
BLACK LINE
Black run
Blam honey
BLOOD – Dora, Hayato, Kiwamu
Blood Stain Child
BORN
BUCK-TICK

Calmando Qual
Chaos system - TOMO, Kyouka
Chemical Pictures (also ex member Jimi)
CindyKate
ClearVeil – Ryuuto, Nozomi
Cocklobin
Cube

D
D=OUT
D’eiz
D’espairsray
Danger Gang
DaizyStripper
Dear L’Novel - Kazuho
DEATHGAZE
DecoLa Hopping
DELUHI
DER ZIBET
DIAURA - Yo-ka
Dir en grey
DJ SiSeN
the Dopes
DOG in the PWO
Doremidan
Downer – Kagome
DuelJewel

E’m~grief~ - Cecir
EGOIST - Rui
exist trace

FEECHE
the fool

Gackt (plus Chachamaru, Jun-ji You)
Gakido
Galneryus
the GALLO
the GazettE
(ex) GHOST - Kousei
Girugamesh
GLAY
Golden Bomber
Guild

heidi.
Hi:BRiD – Zero, Jill (ex member)
HITT
HYDE (Since he’s in L’ac~en~ciel)

Irokui

Jinkaku Radio
Jui (ex-vidoll)
Juka

Kaya
Kagrra,
THE KIDDIE
Kiryu
Kozi
Kra
Kuroyume
KYOKUTOU GIRL FRIEND

L’arc~en~Ciel
Lacroix Desphere
La’cryma Christi
LAGING – Orochi
Lauder - MAST, LEN
(ex) Lareine – Emiru, Kamijo
Lin -the end of corruption world-
Lolita23q
LOST ASH
LM.C - Aiji & Maya
LUNA SEA
Luzmelt
Lycaon - Yuuki
lynch.

Mana
Matenrou Opera
Megaromania – Misery, Hyoga
Megamasso
Merry
Misaruka
MIX SPEAKER’S INC.
Miyavi
Moi dix Mois – Seth, K
MoNoLith
MUCC – Tatsurou, Yukke, Miya

Nega – Yuu, SAN
NEXX - Shikoto
Nightmare
Number mouse - Kyohei

Oblivion Dust
-OZ- - Aki, Nao
ONE OK ROCK
Oyuugi wagamama-dan x PaRADEiS

Para:noir
(ex) Panic Channel - Kiri
Penicillin
The Piass – Takayuki
Piko
Plastic Tree

R-shitei – Mamo, Z, Kaede
Reivier – Jey, Makoto, Kou, Hiro
remming - Kosuke
Royz

QUAFF – (ex members: Hal, Shingo, Ukusemi, Takuma)

remming - Sou
rice
the Riotts

Sadie
Satsuki
Schwein – Yam, Zin, Takeru, Hina
SCAPEGOAT
SCREW (ex member Yuuto as well)
Secilia Luna
Sekihan
Sel’m - Tsubaki
Shaura
SID
SKULL - Die
SOMATIC GUARDIAN – Saki, Junya
spiv states
SuG (also ex drummer Mitsuru is safe)
Sugizo
Suzaku
Synside

Takanori Nishikawa (T.M.Revolution)
TissueHime
Tokami – Agato, K, Shige
(ex) Tokyo Shitei – Shibuya, Ren, Runchu

UnsraW
UN=(XAG) – Yun, Yukihira
Ultimate Sonic - Yuu

V-last – Shyena
v(NEU)
(ex) VAJRA - L
Vallquar – Hikari, Mikoto
VAMPS
Velbet
(ex) Velgreed - Naru
Velvet eden
Versailles
VII-Sense
Vidoll – Tero, Jui, Shun
vistlip
ViViD
VURNY - Hina

X-Japan
XA-VAT
Xenophobia - Benjamin
xTRiPx

Zoro - Ryuuji
ZUCK

The current status of Johnny boys after the tsunami

  • Ryosuke Yamada (evacuated, Save with Co.Stars, in hospital)
  • Yuri Chinen (evacuated, Save with Co. Stars)
  • Yuma Nakayama (evacuated, Save with Co.Stars/his sister Nana is fine)
  • Kazunari Ninomiya (Save by VS Staff/but still in Odaiba, FujiTV say Arashi is Fine)
  • Masaki Aiba (Save by VS Staff, save by VS and Barbender/his family is save, too/his home burn/now hear he was filming Barbender and is save by them, FujiTV say Arashi is Fine)
  • Jin Akanashi (Save by Backdancer Lizzy)
  • Jun Matsumoto (Save by VS Staff/ but still in Odaiba, Fuji TV say Arashi is Fine)
  • Sho Sakurai (Save by VS Staff/ but still in Odaiba, Fuji TV say Arashi is Fine)
  • Satoshi Ohno (Save by VS Staff/ but still in Odaiba, Fuji TV say Arashi is Fine)
  • Ryo Nishikido (Save by Staff for Dorama, some information say he isn´t save, but Johnny´s say Ryo is Save)
  • Yuya Tegoshi (Save by Staff for Dorama, hear he hurt his hand)
  • Taisuke Fujigaya (Save by Staff, Dorama)
  • Hiromutsu Kitayama (Save by Staff, Dorama)
  • Junnosuke Tageuchi (Save by Staff, Dorama)
  • Kouchi Domoto (Save by Staff)
  • Hiroki Uchi (Save)
  • Kazuya Kamenashi (Save by fans and Staff)
  • Yuta Nakajima (save, minor injured on his hand)
  • Kei Inoo (his Mother say he is allright, save with Hikaru and Tackey)
  • Kota Yabu (save, injured)
  • Subaru Shibutani (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Go Morita (Save by Johnny´s, his family is save, house glass broke)
  • Masayuki Sakamoto (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Hiroshi Nagano (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Yoshihiko Inohara (Save by Johnny´s, his family is save)
  • Ken Miyake (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Junichi Okada (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Daiki Arioka (save, minor injured in hospital)
  • Toma Ikuta (he was in Osaka, is Save)
  • Yamashita Tomohisa (his dog is in hospital/ house is devormed, his sister say he is fine, Family Yamashita all are ok, hear he had a car accident)
  • Ueda Tatsuya (house is devormed, guitarist say he is ok, hear he had a collapse, but now is ok)
  • Tanaka Koki (confirmed by siblings, his brother is fine, too)
  • Yuichi Nakamura (save)
  • Yuya Matsushita
  • Tsuyoshi Domoto (Save by Staff)
  • Hideaki Takizawa (Endless Shock Staff say all fine, save with Hikaru and Kei)
  • Koyama Keiichiro (Save)
  • Shigeaki Kato (Save)
  • Senga Kento
  • Miyata Toshiya
  • Wataru Yokoo
  • Yuta Tamamori
  • Takashi Nikaido
  • Shingo Murakami (Save by Johnny´s)
  • You Yokoyama (Save by Staff)
  • Shota Yasuda (Save by Staff)
  • Ryuhei Maruyama (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Tadayoshi Okura (Save by Staff)
  • Katori Shingo (Save)
  • Ryutaro Morimoto (Save, Shintaro is unknow)
  • Keito Okamoto (Save, nothing idea what is with Kenichi or his Mom)
  • Hikaru Yamomote (house in Sendai is totally finished, save with Tackey and Kei, Hikaru lost his home in Tsunami, nothing know what happen with his family)
  • Tatsuya Yamaguchi (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Shigeru Joshima (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Taichi Kokubun (Save by Johnny´s)
  • Masahiro Matsuoka (Save by Johnny´s, minor injured)
  • Tomoya Nagase (Save by Johnny´s, minor injured, is now fine)
  • Yugo Koichi (Save by Staff)
  • Kento Nakajima (Save by Staff)
  • Fuma Kikuichi (Save by Staff)
  • Hokuto Matsumura (Save by Staff)
  • Juri Tanaka (Save)
  • Yuma Sanda (Save)
  • Kusano (Save by his own)
  • Yoshihiro Yodogawa
  • Kazuyori Fujie (his father say on Twitter all from the Family are ok)
  • Akun Igo
  • Daisuke Ishigaki (he is save)
  • Hiromi Goto
  • Mizuki Inoue (Save)
  • Masahiro Nakai
  • Kumira Takuya
  • Tsuyoshi Kusanagi
  • Gorou Inagaki
  • Higashimayama Noriyuki (save in Osaka)
  • Ryota Uesata (he say by his own on Twitter he is Ok)
  • Jesse Lewis
  • Rikito Murata
  • Yuya Takaki (save, it´s was a rumor. In Japan he wasn´t missing)
  • Tsubasa Imai (save, it´s was a rumor. In Japa he wasn´t missing)
  • Takahisa Masuda (save)


*Some Jr. are saved by Endless Shock Staff, M.A.D. and an other with M I forget the name, sorry but their are save, too.




Not Confirmed
  • Ryosuke Hashimoto
  • Yuya Otsuka
  • Aoi Chino
  • Daiki Shigeoka
  • Shota Totsuka
  • Shota Watanabe
  • Masahiro Nakai
  • Kento Nakajima
  • Tatsuya Fukasawa
  • Koichi Goseki
  • Ryuhei Maruyama
  • Tomohiro Kamiyama
  • Ryo Hashimoto
  • Sakayu Kimura
  • Shingo Katori
  • Aoi Okada
  • Bunichi Hamanaka
  • Ryo Masuda
  • Shinpei Takemoto
  • Tatsuya Yamaguchi
  • Yuki Haba
  • Ryoichi Tsukada
  • Casey Takeshi Anderson
  • Tsuyoshi Kusanagi
  • Masashi Ito
  • Junichi Okada
  • Shigeru Joshima
  • Taichi Kokubun
  • Tomoya Nagasa
  • Yoshihiko Inohara
  • Keigo Hagiya
  • Gorou Inagaki
  • Akito Kiriyama
  • Shintaro Kishimoto
  • Yoshihiro Yodogawa
  • Toshiya Miyata
  • Masahiro Kikuoka
  • Kunta Yamasaki
  • Hikaru Iwamoto
  • Ryuta Muro
  • Jesse Lewis
  • Kentaro Yasui
  • Nozomu Kotaki
  • Ryusei Fujii
  • Takahiro Hamada
  • Tatsuki Muro
  • Rikito Murata
  • Yuto Shingaki
  • Junta Nakama
  • Yuki Nozawa
  • Daichi Nakata
  • Ryohei Abe
  • Kazuyori Fujiie
  • Kei Kurita
  • Daisuke Ishigaki
  • Daisuke Sakuma
  • Yuki Haba
  • Fumito Kawai
  • Mizuki Inoue
  • Taiga Kyomoto
  • Shoki Morohoshi
  • Kento Senga
  • Ryota Miyadate
  • Reia Nakamura
  • Kenichi Okamoto
  • Matchy
  • Shonentai
  • Shintaro Morimoto

other non JE artist are safe. Kanata Hongo is confirm safe (from his entry in his diary). Miura Haruma is also safe.

I'll put up a link afterward, so you can check whether your idol is found and safe or not. :)

Friday, March 11, 2011

Hoping for the best.



Both are taken from CNN.com

My thoughts are with the Japanese as they went through this hard ordeal. CNN mentions that about 50 countries will be affected by this disaster. I just heard from my friend that some part of my country was also affected by it. Because my house is close to the beach, I pray that my family members and close friends are safe.

Lastly, don't lose hope Japan. You can get through this hard time.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Crying

I cannot deal with death easily. As I was falling asleep, from my nap, a reply came to my mailbox. "about this.. you better ask her directly. She didn't want rumors to spread."

... I called my friend immediately. When she picked up the phone, tears were already streaming down my face. We talked, though I didn't asked much, I just asked, which of her siblings passed away. She said the third one.

I cried as both of us talked. She didn't have any hint of sadness in her tone of voice and she laughed a bit when I said a lame joke.

I never met her brother. I don't think I've spoken to him before. I think I saw a couple of pictures of him in my friend's laptop but that's it.

As I'm typing right now, I'm still wiping my tears. I feel sad. I feel so alone.

I just need to talk to someone, telling me, death is a part of life and we can't avoid it. But as I am writing this, I feel much sadder and I can't stop crying.

I need to compose myself now. I'll drop by again later.