Sunday, December 19, 2010

Merry Christmas~~

Merry Christmas!
Hope you all will have a great Christmas. Take care and don't get sick from the weather!
I'm going to my mom's longhouse for Christmas, and will be back after the big day. ^_^

The true meaning of Christmas~



Wednesday, December 8, 2010

New Mission



Why 2012? Well, the movie 2012 saying world destruction and all.


Not really. Because I think I'll be too old to travel after 2012.

Now I'm 22. In 2012 I'm gonna be 24. Yeah, I'm getting old.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

A sudden demise.

Today, it is a sad day indeed. One of my turtles have passed away. It (He/She) will be missed dearly.

I was about to bath them this afternoon when I saw one of the turtle was in an awkward position. Its head was under one of the other turtles, with all its limb out of its shell. Worried, I quickly moved the other turtle and was shocked when I saw the turtle already closed its eyes.

I lifted it, but it didn't move a muscle. I placed my finger on its neck and I felt like crying when I didn't feel a pulse.

I called out to my mom. "Mummy, saya rasa satu kura kura ni dah arwah." (Mummy, I think one of this turtles is already dead).

My mum rushed out and she also had a sad look in her eyes. She mentioned that this was the turtle that rarely came out of its shell. After that, a simple burial was done for the deceased turtle.

My younger brother dug a shallow grave near the chicken hut and buried it there.

In sadness, I mental wrote a poem for the turtle.

My Turtle

It was a few years ago when you were found and was welcomed by our family.
All the time spent with you until now was never enough for me to get to know you better.

Words cannot describe how much I felt when I saw you being slowly laid into the grave
Tears was on the brink of falling down but I bit my lips and force myself not to cry.

When I saw the other six watching you being laid into the grave,
I looked away.
It wasn't because I wanted to ignore them
but it was like they knew you were gone and never coming back
and I just can't face them.

I never loved you enough, like an owner to its pet.
Unlike Alfred, the biggest one or James Toney, the youngest one,
I never named you.
There were times when I forgot to feed or bathe you.
For that, I am sorry.
I admit, there are times when I am a useless owner.

Yesterday you were still there.
Sitting with your siblings (as I call them).
You were hiding in your shells
while your sibling swam around the aquarium and ate the food I threw in.

Today, you took you breath for the last time and closed your eyes.
You didn't hide in your shells anymore and showed us your face.
Thank you for being my pet for the these few years.
You will be missed by your siblings and all of us.

Thank you.

A picture of the siblings. Ah, they're not actually siblings, but I address them as siblings because they are all turtles.

The deceased turtle was one of them. I cannot differentiate them from this picture. Gomen.

Monday, December 6, 2010


A global goodbye for Japan pop star Hikaru Utada.

Milk came out of my nose. I actually thought that Utada chan passed away. I lol at the Yahoo News when I finally read the full article.

A global goodbye for Japan pop star Hikaru Utada.

That's the full article.

They should've put the headline something like:

-Japanese Pop Idol Utada Hikaru will go on hiatus in 2011
-Japan top pop Idol Utada Hikaru will retire.

I lol again.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

To flame or not to flame that is the question.

There comes a time when we are angry as hell and you wish that that particular person should die in misery and and their death could be repeated for eternity.

I recently met someone and befriended that someone. It seems, that in the end my first impression on that that person is actually accurate. *sigh* I really wish that my first impression of that person wasn't accurate. *sigh*

I wish I had a voodoo doll of that person. Poking the eyes looks soooooo tempting.

I just want to say... screw you and I hope you will be happy the way you are. I guess you are happy the way you are. that's why you're like that. I can't run away from the problem (that person) but I don't want to face it either. I guess.. I just ignore it and hopefully it will finally die on its own. Yea. That's it. Less carbon dioxide release into the air and more oxygen for me to breathe.

Thank you Google. <3

This wasn't supposed to be a hate post but, I just got angry all of the sudden. Forgive me people. I promise I'll return to my old self in the next post. *hearts*

Monday, November 29, 2010

A sad day for us. RIP Leslie Neilsen.

I just opened my Yahoo homepage and saw the headlines.
Leslie Nielsen has passed away.
I loved him.
My earliest memory of watching him in movie or drama was Dracula: Dead and Loving It.
I'm still searching for that movie now.
I feel like crying now.
God bless his soul and may he rest in peace.

Leslie William Nielsen (February 11, 1926 – November 28, 2010) [R.I.P.]


At first I thought this group was one of the many Japanese girls groups like *cough*Momusu*cough* and I still do think so. But now I'm addicted with this group of 48 girls. :D. A brief information about AKB48.

(of course this is taken from Prof. Wiki's mouth)

-AKB48 is an all-female Japanese theater/idol group produced by Yasushi Akimoto.
-AKB48 is theater-based and have their own theater in Akihabara where they perform once every weekday, and more than once on both Saturday and Sunday.
-AKB48 currently holds the Guinness World Records for being the "Pop group with the most amount of members". (HOW COOL IS THAT?! And you thought the untalented Super Junior has the most members.)
-AKB48 is divided into three teams: Team A, Team K and Team B.

Beginner is one of the latest song I've heard, and I have yet listened to Heavy Rotation because I thought they were a bit .. what's the word I was looking for.. Hmm.. looks a bit cheap? They dress in lingerie for crying out loud. Give me two weeks, I will watch the music video eventually. After all, I am obsessed with their songs. :D

A little something about Beginner single. It sold about 500,000 copies in Japan on the first day. Wow.
Sells like hot 'pisang goreng.'
This girls and their management are really selling well. Good for them.

Ah, I wanted to watch the original version of Beginner but it seems that they re-release the PV and the new PV is more on dancing. Meh. The original PV was actually much scary and controversial with Kojima Haruna’s face being chopped into half, Oshima Yuko getting stabbed by black thick needle looking thing, and Maeda Atsuko chopping her own arm off. Though it was shown at “AKB48 19th Single Senbatsu Janken Taikai” on September 21st, and also at “AKB48 Tokyo Autumn Festival” on October 10th, they released a different “dance version” PV which was a much different PV than the original.

source: Shiso

[Preview of the dance version of Beginner]

[Live version of Beginner because I can't find the PV]

Beginner's Translation

In your position set!

All the experiences you made until yesterday
And your knowledge are only a burden
The wind will always pass by
And leave nothing behind

Look for a new road!
Don't open someone else's map!
When you raise your eyes that were looking at the ground you'll become zero

Are we dreaming?
Are we believing in future?
Afraid of nothing, careless of what's our place
As reckless as we are
Are we dreaming now?
We should be as brand new as a child...
Let's tear off the chains that controlled us
Change your mind
Change your mind
We don't need to know anything Beginner!

Adults failed and felt ashamed
And suffering has become their trauma
Thinking they don't want to feel such pain again
They have become smart

Challenges are laughed upon
What are you protecting with your silly calculations
In order to avoid risks?

Are we alive?
Do we want to be alive tomorrow?
We pretend we understand, we feign a knowing look
While we haven't dreamed in a long while
Yeah, are we alive?
Aren't we wasting our life?
Feel now the rhythm pulsing through your veins!

Stand up! Together!
Remember the day you were born!
Everyone's a beginner!
Stand up! Right away!
It won't go well
Easily from the beginning
Stand up! Together!
You just need to go back to the beginning
A beginner again
Stand up! Right away!
Be defiant, be defiant
It will happen somehow
Tear away the old page
Come on, let's begin!
We can be reborn all the time

Are we dreaming?
Are we believing in future?
Afraid of nothing, careless of what's our place
As reckless as we are
Are we dreaming now?
We should be as brand new as a child...
Let's tear off the chains that controlled us

I can't do anything
I can't do it well
And so?
We're still young
I can't do anything
I can't do it right away
That's why we have possibilities

The rain has stopped
The wind has stopped
A light we've never seen before
Is shining
Now's the time

You are a reborn beginner!

Credits to: loveandcoffee @

*sigh* Even with the most intensive Googling I still haven't managed to get the original video. :(
Gomen minna san.
m(_ _)m

Sooooooooooooooooooo... that's all for now. I will come by again, one day. :D

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My friends are love.

HOMG. Do I love my friends. There are a few of them that irritates me and I also dislike them as they dislike them. :D

But next semester will be the last time I'll be with them and they'll have to bear with my antics and I, as well, with them. :D

That's all this post about. :)

Pointless, but I thought I want to post and appreciate the friendship. xD

Friday, November 5, 2010

It's 7 am and I'm still awake.

cómo estás? -How are you today?
Estoy bien. Gracias. I am fine.Thank you.

estás loco? -Are you crazy?
sí, estoy - Yes, I am.

After too much watching Spanish soap opera during my younger age, there bound to be words that I picked up.
Ah, I have no life.

It's quiet. No Arashi news still. I'm bored.

Arashi and Kohaku

It seems in some news that Arashi is hosting but not performing but by some other people, it seems that Kohaku still unsure who will perform during the event.


Blame it on the translator for the misinformation?


Or blame it on myself for not knowing the beautiful language?


Ending this post with a duck-lips Matsujun and the dorky bunch.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

New Arashi scandal??!!

I adore Arashi to bits, and with leaking pictures of their pasts with an AV actress that suddenly died recently, a day after they are confirmed to be the host of Kohaku this year is not good.
Not good at all.


the AV actress story:
AV actress mysterious death

I wish the boys all the best and hopefully they can go through this ordeal without any trouble.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Just some random thoughts

I hate her?
Meh, I never really liked her in the first place.


Detective Conan marathon starts now!!!!
1 episode down, 500 episodes more to go!
Kudo Shinichi / Edogawa Conan is uber cool. =]

Ah, right now I'm in love K.I.D (Kaito Kid)
This is all because I read the manga from book number 1 till the latest issue, issue number 740. *sigh* Yeah, it's not the latest but that's all I got.

I'm loving Hattori Heiji's character too.
Is it because he's Kansai? Gahahaha..

Thank you Aoyama Gosho for making this wonderful manga.

All images are taken from various site with the help of Google. Thank you Google for making my life much brighter.

Notice the new layout?

Notice the new layout??

I changed the header into Jack-o-Lantern first but then after Halloween passed, I remember I deleted my Arashi header (yes, the one with all five members were shirtless and with the black background). So, since I want to tone down my layout, I choose a really really plain color, pale blue with gray and green-ish theme. Cool eh?

I'm wondering whether I should start writing new fic or not. Should I just start Saliva Tuesday 2 or start a new fic? Dilemma.. dilemma.

Ah, the other day, I was feeling really depressed and went to Suicide survivor's page. Yeah, give a depressed person a depressing web page, what will you get? I was double depressed after reading some of the stories and poems from the suicide survivors, especially the family of the deceased mentioned how much they missed and loved their kids/anyone that died from suicide.

I want to share 1 poem that really struck my heart to the core. I cried reading it.


We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heart ache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.

There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.

We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.

Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

~ Written by Connie Dyer, BP/USA, Springfield, IL

In loving memory of Chrissie Carrigan.

Monday, November 1, 2010


I love these ugly rabbits. They're so adorably ugly.


[p/s: Mama Jen should change the newspaper. There's too much Bobosh!t]

Sunday, October 31, 2010

An old poem I dugged up between my notes.

I can feel you slowly leaving me
You left me when I am down
You were always there when I am happy
Why now?
When my heart is slowly dying?
When I cried silently inside, I knew you were there.
But why...
When when En. Lah said
10% for the test
I saw you left me and went upward
why did you leave me...
My soul

After DB test and En. Lah said the test was actually 10% not 5%.

Saturday, October 30, 2010


It's 31st October. It means.....


Have you seen Google's page?! COOL!!!

The word Halloween is first attested in the 16th century and represents a Scottish variant of the fuller All-Hallows-Even ("evening"), that is, the night before All Hallows Day. Up through the early 20th century, the spelling "Hallowe'en" was frequently used, eliding the "v" and shortening the word. Although the phrase All Hallows is found in Old English (ealra hālgena mæssedæg, mass-day of all saints), All-Hallows-Even is itself not attested until 1556.
[thank you, Wikipedia]

So basically, it's a feast for the dead. Ah, which reminds me. All saints' day is on the 1st of November. Halloween is like Hallow's Eve. Hallow here means ghost, so means that Halloween is the eve where the ghost roams the earth. From what I understand la~

I still remember when I was young, my parents went to the cemetery along with all the other parishioners to lit the candle on every grave, in remembrance, on 1st November every year. When we went on our ritual evening/late night drive the whole Catholic cemetery looks eerie/beautiful bask in the candle light glow. :)

Later all~ I need to study my database. -___-


*Listening to Michael Jackson's Thriller*

It's close to midnight and something evil's lurking in the dark
Under the moonlight, you see a sight that almost stops your heart

You try to scream but terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze as horror looks you right between the eyes
You're paralyzed


What's for dinner?

On the far left is scrambled egg, then the brownish water in the water bottle is Tea, the rice and the red-scary-spicy looking soup is actually the leftover Tom Yam from lunch and finally the stir fried cabbage and white broccolli. Yummm~~

Another angle

I cook all of this for dinner using the rice cooker. I'm such an expert in cooking. xD

Thank you for all the 'eaters' yang secara langsung dan tidak langsung membantu memasak and memakan my food. :D

Later all~

Friday, October 29, 2010

Colors of my life

I love green. I do, really! I love red too. Though, I was actually obsessed with these two colors because of Arashi's Matsujun and Sho's color font. xD.

I know, it's a very childish obsession. But hey, who can blame me. Those two men are attractive and the two colors also attract people to take a second look. xD

Name: 櫻井翔 Sakurai Sho
Date of Birth:1982 January 25
Birthplace: Tokyo, Japan
Height: 171cm
Weight: 60kg
Star Sign: Aquarius
Blood Type: A
Family: Mom, Dad, younger sister, younger brother
Favorite Subjects: Japanese, Geography
Least Favorite Subjects: Anything related to math and science
Favorite Food: Pizza
Profession: Actor, Singer, Host
Talent Agency: Johnny's Entertainment
JPop Group: Arashi
Sakurai has the highest education among Arashi, being a graduate of Keio University, and has become the inspiration for younger Johnny's idols such as NEWS members to pursue higher education after graduating for high school
Sakurai is also a known promoter of education towards today's youth in Japan, being spokesperson for Jounan Yobiko, a known enrichment cram school back in early 2005.

+Sho's father is a government official.
+Sho's mother is a college/university literature professor.
+Sho's secret to success in studying for school is to put everything on hold, including his career, and spend at least 1 month in advance strictly studying at home or at the library.
+His favorite TV channels are MTV and Discovery Channel.
+Sho likes to read before going to bed.
+Sho doesn't feel comfortable or confident taking his shirt off for photo shoots.
+Sho's ideal girlfriend: sweet, simple, smart-dressed (i.e. no skimpy clothes), non-smoker, non-celebrity with intelligence and an independently thinking mind.
+Sho likes to surf the Internet on his free time.
+Sho has a passion for learning about History

Matsumoto Jun (松本潤)

Nick Name: Matsujun, Junji, King [By all Arashi], Jun-Chan, Matsumoto-kun, Do-S

Profession: actor, singer, host

Jpop Group: Arashi

Date of Birth: August 30, 1983

Birthplace: Tokyo, Japan

Height: 173cm

Weight: 58kg

Blood type: A

Zodiac: Virgo

Family: Father, mother & an elder sister

Interests: acting, music, dance, theatre, photography

Favorite Food: Noodles, dry plums, mango

Favorite Colors: White, black and blue

Favorite smiley: m(_ _)m

Favorite Sport: baseball

Enjoys: go to the beach and play with dogs… even though he doesn’t have a dog, shopping and buy clothes, likes to change his hairstyle.

See, they're so gosh darn adorable. *swoon*

Ah! I had Vegetable Tom Yam for lunch.
It was really really really reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally hot + spicy + sour but I love it!!

Oh yea, this entry has no actual point actually.
I just want to share my love towards Arashi and Tom Yam.
Yeah. Both of them actually connects in a parallel universe... somehow.
Ah! Remember Arashi no Shukudai kun, where they played Sugoroku, and Jun's batsu game was to eat the very 'karai'/spicy Tom Yam from Thailand. And Jun said "Tom Yam ga daisuki!" He said he loves Tom Yam!
See, Tom Yam and Arashi are connected, somehow.

Later all~